As the title explains.... Sigh....

People can probably guess, im well depressed (woot xD i guess), Angry,Apathetic, other moods that include sadness. i feel the urge (or something along those lines) im not wanted (No, Im not leaving DA,YT, or the world, Killing myself solves nothing). For Example, Well, i hate when people stare (like for a long time) at me, it makes me feel strange (Strange= Hated) which i can see and feel those hateful eyes staring at me. Secondly, people see me as this person who is extremely emotion (which i can tell im sad alot, i know, it's personal problems only one person knows ^-^) but i hear people whisper "she doesn't belong in this world, she not NORMAL". -.- this is where it gets me annoyed. i am who i am, normal in peoples eyes or not, no one can change who i am. sure im emotional, im sad and angry alot. but does it mean anything? not sure in peoples eyes. Thirdly (if thats a word...), i hate this most of all, Well, i have been scared of being abandoned or alone for to long because i think someone (like a kidnapper or something) is gonna come and take me away. I HATE being abandoned because it makes me feel like im a dog, something to pet till someone gets to bored of it and leaves to be a burden on the streets. but anyways, these people keep touching me (not in a bad way, like touching my stomach,back,shoulder,arms) and grabbing my arms, it makes me feel scared inside. i don't know what to do.

Anyways. UchiUzuPro videos are coming up ^-^ im excited for the 14th (if Jii-san is aloud to come over ^-^). you will be surprised of our videos ^-^ Heh, i have been excited all week. next week i'll be excited aswell ^-^ Nyu nyu. and Happy late Halloween everyone. sorry im kinda late, but i got in trouble (of course -.-) and got the computer taken away for abit...

im wondering where Jii-san is online. im alittle worried. (bond instinct XD XD i get worried alot XD) o.o Nyu nyu

anywyas, goodbye for now!
~ Yumi Uchiha